Monday, December 26, 2011

Creating Christmas memories is my favorite.

We had such an incredible Christmas.

And despite the fact we had no extended family to share it with we were so blessed to spend it with others who treat us like family. God never ceases to amaze me.

It began Christmas Eve morning when we shared breakfast with our friends, the Teagues.

Once home I baked a pecan pie and chocolate chip pumpkin bread. At 5 we attended service at church. From there we went to eat at Cheddars with our best friends, the Daigles and our adopted brother Terrence.
The evening only got better when we returned to the Daigles for a gift exchange and Kerri's home made cheese cake. Sooooo good. We had such a great time.

Christmas morning, everyone woke up to the smell of fresh coffee and bacon and eggs on the griddle.

We had a blast watching the kids open their gifts and even Brian and I got spoiled. And even though we didn't get our dossier finished or even USCIS approval as a gift we were still unbelievably thankful. We are praying early in the New Year will bring both those things.

Everything with our meal was perfect and we were even joined by Jared's girlfriend and her brother.

We spent the rest of the day lazing around enjoying our gifts, watching sports and movies and just enjoying our time together.

I cannot begin to tell you just how much we have enjoyed this holiday season. One more week before total reality sets in. I plan on being really productive this week and also enjoying my family. Especially since Brian will be off starting Wednesday through Monday. He deserves the break.

I pray you all had an amazing Christmas also. Happy New Year. May God bless you!!!

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Friday, December 23, 2011

Why I celebrate Christmas!!

A baby came, to die.

He redeemed us from our old life and because of His salvation and grace we walk in new life.

He is our Savior, our Healer and our ALL in ALL.

And, this is why we celebrate Christmas.

For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counsellor, The mighty God, The everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace.

Of the increase of his government and peace there shall be no end, upon the throne of David, and upon his kingdom, to order it, and to establish it with judgment and with justice from henceforth even for ever. The zeal of the LORD of hosts will perform this.

Isaiah 9:6-7

Monday, December 19, 2011

Growing Deep Roots: My first giveaway...and I am excited!!

Growing Deep Roots: My first giveaway...and I am excited!!: Let me introduce you to Project 320.    This is the third year for Project 320.  Six women have gotten together and decided that they can do...

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Not the GUMDROP buttons!!

For the first time this Christmas I decided it would be fun to build gingerbread houses.

It definitely looked easier than it was. But thankfully, since the boys are almost all teenagers they didn't need me to help them. Because trust me, I couldn't have!

So, in the end we had 5 mini houses. They all looked like they needed some help but we had a blast doing it and there was lots of laughing and a nice sugar high.

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Monday, December 12, 2011

1 Corinthians 13 Christmas

I saw this on my friend Tracy's blog and had to post it also. Thanks girl!

1 Corinthians 13 Christmas

If I decorate my house perfectly with plaid bows, strands of twinkling lights and shiny balls, but do not show love to my family, I’m just another decorator.

If I slave away in the kitchen, baking dozens of Christmas cookies, preparing gourmet meals and arranging a beautifully adorned table at mealtime, but do not show love to my family, I’m just another cook.

If I work at the soup kitchen, carol in the nursing home and give all that I have to charity, but do not show love to my family, it profits me nothing.

If I trim the spruce with shimmering angels and crocheted snowflakes, attend a myriad of holiday parties and sing in the choir’s cantata but do not focus on Christ, I have missed the point.

Love stops the cooking to hug the child.
Love sets aside the decorating to kiss the husband.
Love is kind, though harried and tired.
Love doesn’t envy another’s home that has coordinated Christmas china and table linens.

Love doesn’t yell at the kids to get out of the way, but is thankful they are there to be in the way.

Love doesn’t give only to those who are able to give in return but rejoices in giving to those who can’t.

Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails. Video games will break, pearl necklaces will be lost, golf clubs will rust, but giving the gift of love will endure.

Author Unknown

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

National Adoption Month.

November is National Adoption Month which I know is so close to the holidays but there is so much you can do for so little.
It just takes a little sacrifice.
The agency we are using, Children's Hope International has a catalog available online which gives lots of inexpensive ideas to help an orphan.
Please take a moment to click on the link and look through the online catalog and consider helping some orphans in need or at least take some time to look through the website and pray for these kids.
Thanks. Happy Thanksgiving.

Monday, November 07, 2011


Since being on this journey called adoption there have been more thoughts than normal running around in my head.

In the beginning when we first felt called to adopt it was, is this really God's will? How could not be God's will? How will we afford it? How hard will it be? How long is it gonna take?
Then everything was on hold my thoughts moved to, maybe this isn't what we are supposed to do. Maybe we heard God wrong. We have so much debt there is no way we can ever do this. I guess the dream is dead.

Three more years passed coupled with lots of moving, uncertainty and certainly hundreds more questions. Then the thoughts went like this. Are we too old for this? My heart yearns for a little girl I've never even met, how is that possible? I know we are supposed to do this, how are we ever going to afford it.

Then one day, we just knew it was time to start so we jumped in with both feet.

Here we are 8 months in and today we just got home from Raleigh after we had our biometrics appointment.

Here are some of the thoughts I have these days, I wonder how many more times I'll clean this bathroom before I bring Grace home.
What are going to be the issues we deal with? I am gonna love having a little girl. I am gonna hate having a little girl. What if I can't do it? Why does everyone else make this adoption process look so easy?

And finally when I come to the end of myself I return to His feet, sigh real big and say Thank you Jesus I can rest in you because you have all this in the palm of your hands.

For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
The King James version says I know the THOUGHTS I think towards you...
What a precious thing. We may have thousands of thoughts, some good, some not so good but all of His thoughts are for good and not evil.
His plans aren't just for this little girl waiting in China somewhere for her forever family. They are also for the forever family who have moments when they cry in frustration because the process can be so long. I am so thankful for the God I serve who loves me despite all my crazy thoughts and who has seen the end already and is carrying us through all of it.

Saturday, October 29, 2011

A Make Over!

Everything and everyone I think, needs a make over from time to time.

This blog was no exception.

So, a few weeks ago I contacted the creative forces that be and asked for a remodel and once again she has delivered.

Its just in time too.

We have entered a new phase of this journey.

We feel closer than ever and its scary as it is exciting.

Thursday we spent more than 2 hours looking through the database of girls alone who are waiting for forever families. There were over 456 ranging in age from 0-18. There were only about 80 in our age range which is 2-3, however just going through these files was the most heart wrenching thing we have ever done.

How do you look past the faces, disabled or not and not long to scoop them up and just love them? It was so hard. Some of them have such severe disabilities you wonder if they will be stuck there forever. I literally felt physically sick.

But in the end we had to look at the special needs we felt capable of handling and we chose 6 girls to look at in more depth.

So now what you might ask? Well, we take these files to a pediatrician and ask every question we can think of that pertains to their needs.

And then, we make a choice. And the truth is, she may not be one of these 6. And guess what? We're OK with that. We know God already has our daughter in the palm of His hand and His timing will the THE timing so we will rest as we go through these files. Its a beautiful thing.

As for paperwork, we are working on the dossier, have our biometrics appointment in November and my passport is going to arrive hopefully in the next 2 weeks or so.

Since these past 3 weeks have been filled with wedding stuff (I was matron of honor) its nice to have all my focus back where I feel it belongs.

Once again, thank you for riding this wave with us and please pray specifically for God's will as we go through these files.


Thursday, September 15, 2011

Homestudy APPROVED!!!!

Need I say more?

Next steps?

USCIS Application to be submitted and all the dossier work begins.

Prayer is appreciated for these next steps to go a little more smoothly than the homestudy did.


Friday, September 09, 2011



A final word: Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on all of God’s armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies of the devil. 12 For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.

13 Therefore, put on every piece of God’s armor so you will be able to resist the enemy in the time of evil. Then after the battle you will still be standing firm. 14 Stand your ground, putting on the belt of truth and the body armor of God’s righteousness. 15 For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News so that you will be fully prepared. 16 In addition to all of these, hold up the shield of faith to stop the fiery arrows of the devil. 17 Put on salvation as your helmet, and take the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

There are times in life when you feel like you have been knocked down.

There is no more wind in your sails or breath in your lungs.

In the moment it feels sad and hopeless.

There is an overwhelming sense of failure and defeat.

All of life seems to be closing in or crashing down around you.

This is when you STAND.

You stand firm knowing that God is there in your midst and sees all the tears you cry.

You stand firm knowing that God has not left you now and will not leave you in the future.

You stand firm knowing that He has set your feet on a rock. And that rock is HIM.

You stand firm knowing that whatever trial or test you are going through, if you let Him, His glory will be revealed.

You stand firm knowing that the peace which passes all understanding will walk with you through this and will never fail you.

You stand firm knowing He loves you, gave His life for you and now intercedes for you as He sits at the right hand of the Father.

This is how to stand and this is how I am standing today!

Thank you Jesus.

Psalm 59:9-11

You are my strength; I wait for you to rescue me,
for you, O God, are my fortress.
10 In his unfailing love, my God will stand with me.
He will let me look down in triumph on all my enemies.

11 Don’t kill them, for my people soon forget such lessons;
stagger them with your power, and bring them to their knees,
O Lord our shield.

Psalm 119:89-90
89 Your eternal word, O Lord,
stands firm in heaven.
90 Your faithfulness extends to every generation,
as enduring as the earth you created.

Monday, August 29, 2011

This Hurricane...called Life

Irene decided to pay us all a visit this past weekend and I have to say, after living in Oklahoma for 12 years I prefer tornado's. Admittedly, tornados are much less predictable than hurricanes but in my experience at least they are much shorter lived.

The rain started here where we live at about 5pm Friday evening and didn't stop until Saturday around 10pm. The wind which was up to at least 60 miles per hour began at about 3am or at least thats when Brian and I awoke to some major dripping. We began laying as many towels as we could along our front windows to try and absorb some of the water.
By 6:45am we quickly learned it was a futile attempt. Still we worked hard to contain the water. We placed buckets and cups in as many strategic places as possible in order to keep the floor from getting more wet. We dried towels in the dryer then replaced the soaked ones but that only lasted until 9am when the power went out. After that, it went downhill fast.
We quickly learned Jayden's doors in his room were no match for the wind and rain and about 1/4 of his room flooded. Our room also was in big trouble and 1/2 of it flooded spreading into our bathroom. We moved beds to the middle of said rooms and waited it out.
The only time I felt myself losing it was when my bedroom ceiling began to leak which I can only attribute to all the missing shingles.

Once our power went out we had no way of knowing how the storm was moving or how much longer we would have to put up with it but luckily I have a grandmother in OK who has Fox News on constantly so I would get updates as often as my phone would allow them through. Thank you Grammy.

We played games, I learned poker, we read, took naps and tried to ignore the constant pouring in of water in 3 of our rooms.

Our front door got so wet it no longer opens and closes without a 200lb weight of force.

Our laminate flooring has all buckled and both carpets are saturated and rooms a wreck!

Thankfully Sunday our friends, who had their power restored loaned us their generator and dehumidifier to at least begin the drying process.

We became painfully aware of just how much this was all going to cost and how adoption money would have to be dipped into but you know what...?

We are alive, we are safe and our house is basically still in tact. We are able bodied people with the ability and means to take care of the mess and its all just "stuff" anyway. I am thankful beyond words for all the generosity of others especially the hot meal last night from David and Anna.

So, last night we are sitting in our living room and its 89 degrees, Brian and I are passing the time watching a movie on the laptop and suddenly a flicker. Was it?? Yes it was!!!! Lights, camera ACTION!!! We had power. And it was a beautiful thing. We were smiling and laughing and hugging each other. It was like a scene from a movie. We were all so thankful.

Today begins more of the clean up and hopefully good news from the insurance company. I hope and pray we never have to go through another hurricane but I am thankful for the experience. It has once again reminded me just how good we have it and how we are surrounded by an amazing community of people who love us!
Please continue to pray with us for the rest of the people hit by this hurricane who continue to be without power and who have sustained worse damage than us. Thanks!

Here are some pics of our little adventure and some I took on our way to church yesterday.
Be blessed, I am!

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Tuesday, August 09, 2011

He is GOOD!!!!

I absolutely love this song and its one I sing to remind myself how good my God is.
I told someone this morning that we must be on the right path with this adoption because we have been met with so much resistance. Yet again there is a small delay but my God is LARGE and in charge and HIS timing is THE timing.
Despite the set backs I get excited as I allow myself to just rest. To be still. To know He is in control and to pray for His will, not my own.
Thank you Jesus for being so good to us and for your goodness in this whole situation.

Friday, July 29, 2011

Jared's Graduation~2011

Jayden, Me, Jared, my dad Richard, Brian and Jackson
Helping Jared get ready.
Jared with several of his friends.
Our family.
Jared and his best friend Tiana.

I still shake my head in disbelief that I have a child who's graduated. I still don't get that he'll be 18 in 2 weeks and I certainly am not ready for him to face the big bad world without me to protect him. But the reality is this-this time was always coming from the day I gave birth to him.

Jared may not have been born under the greatest of circumstances but he couldn't have been born into a more loving environment. I was only 20 years old and single. His "father" had really never been in the picture from the time I found out I was pregnant and I realized quickly I was on my own. Although my parents stepped in and picked up the slack there is nothing quite like being a couple in a situation like that.

I wasn't serving the Lord during that time of my life however towards the end of my pregnancy I began reading my bible a little bit starting with Genesis. Playing the name game alone isn't very much fun but my mom loved it and we tossed around all kinds of names for him like Aaron, James, Shelby, (I didn't know he was a boy), John, but then one evening as I sat reading my bible the name Jared just popped out at me and I knew that was what I was supposed to name him. In the bible, Jared was Enoch's father and Enoch was one who walked so closely with God and never tasted death. He simply wasn't there anymore. I loved that.

As long as I live I'll never forget his birthday. I went into labor at 3 in the afternoon. Nothing much really, more uncomfortable than anything else and when they admitted me at 6pm there was still not much going on and I started to think they might send me home. I remember being all alone hoping my mom would hurry up and get there and without warning I went into full blown labor with contractions coming every couple of minutes and they started to take me upstairs. I was terrified because I was by myself.
But then right as they were wheeling me into the elevator my mom was there.

It wasn't easy, not that its supposed to be but here's something funny. At about 10pm right in the thick of it my mom says "You know I'm not superstitious but it is Friday the 13th, maybe you could wait a couple of hours."
I was like "Are you kidding me? I don't care what the date is, he needs to get here!!"
So, fast forward 2 hours and she actually turns to me and says "OK, its 12:01, anytime you're ready to have that kid."
Of course at the time it was too intense to fully appreciate just how funny that was but shortly after and all these years later I still laugh about it.

There he was laying in his little bassinet and all I could do was look. All I could do was wonder how on earth could I possibly love someone so much I had just met. I was full to over flowing. It took my breath away.

And less than 2 years later God, in His amazingness provided a daddy for Jared and a husband for me. I never could have imagined in all I had done, in all the terrible ways I had lived that I would be worthy of such a precious gift. Thank God its never something we have to earn. I didn't deserve it but He gave it to me anyway. Brian was immediately wonderful with Jared, as if he had been there from the beginning. The first time I heard Jared call Brian "daddy" I thought my heart would explode. To this day I am always overcome with emotion as I recall how God had His hand in it all even though I couldn't have been farther from Him.
This is why I am such an advocate for being a praying parent. I know I was covered as a result of my mom's obedience to pray for her children.

It hasn't always been like that since then. There have been good times and bad times. But they are always overcome because we love like a family is supposed to love. Unconditionally.

The emotion surrounding these last few weeks has been, at times overwhelming as its forced me to recall all we've been through since Jared was born. I've had moments where I simply couldn't breathe when I think how this chapter is ending and a new one is beginning and in no time at all he won't even be living in my house. I won't be there to protect him when he gets hurt. But I also realized all this time I've been preparing him for exactly this. That has been my role these past 18 years. It doesn't mean I don't get to parent him anymore, it just means I might be doing it a little more silently.

It's Jared's time and I have to let go. It's time for him to fly away on his own and I have to take comfort knowing I did the best I could and with God's grace and mercy he will be OK.

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Finding my Voice

Today is the anniversary of my mothers death.
It's not as negative as in years past, in fact I have found I am finally able to talk about her without falling apart.
Progress, I like it.

This past mothers day was also different than all the ones since she died. For the first time I found myself able to be celebrated instead of just putting on a happy face for the kids all the while I'm silently grieving.

When we sat together after her death discussing her memorial service we were all somewhat in a daze. It seems funny to me even now, I mean here we are grieving beyond belief and now we have to make all kinds of decisions.
When we reached the part about the music it was easy. Mom had sung in all church choirs where we had attended since before I was born so it was only natural to have a full choir.

From out of nowhere I said I wanted to sing. One of her favorite songs written by her then choir director Orlando Juarez was Face to Face. To those of you who know me now this is no big thing. Because thats what I do, SING!

But 8 years ago, that was something I'd given very little thought to. Even though I had started singing at age 5 and been in every church choir until the age of 12 I hadn't used my talent since then.
I had somehow bought into the thought pattern that all my years running from the things of God had robbed me of the voice God had given me.
However, several months before something had been stirring in me and I'd asked mom to start giving me some tips on how to start singing again.

But with her illness progressing it just didn't seem to be a priority.

So when I spoke up regarding singing at her service it was as if someone else was saying it. I knew which song and I knew I wanted my mom's sister, Holly to sing with me. So I never really gave it a second thought.

Holly and I barely practiced the song but when the time came there was no fear or anxiety at all. As we went up to sing I closed my eyes, lifted my hands and sang the song from my heart and to my mom. It was the most beautiful moment since she had died.

Since that time I've truly found my voice. I've given my gift back to God and gotten involved where I've felt I've been called to serve.

Loss is never an easy thing to go through but God's promises are always true. And what the enemy meant for evil God turned around for my good and His glory.

Face to Face
Face to face with you in your love and mercy
Sheltered by your glory As I stand face to face with you
Amazing grace surrounds me Songs of praise stir within me
I lift my hands in praise Sin no longer holds me
Captured by your grace I stand before you holy
Thankful for your love oh the joy of sweet communion
There will always be a song of praise within my heart
as I stand Face to Face.

Saturday, May 21, 2011

Where we are and how we are...This ones for you Mollie.

I had a friend ask me recently where we are in our process and how we are doing. Thanks to Mollie, I am taking a moment to blog which I realize I haven't been very good at lately.

We have had a few ups and downs in the last 4 weeks and a glitch or two which were really upsetting. In fact, we had to wait about 2 weeks while the agencies involved decided if we could even continue our journey. I am not going to post those details however if you ask me in person I will happily share them with you. In fact as this goes along and we meet more and more people going through this process we will be able to encourage others because of what happened with us.

In the beginning of this wait period I was beside myself as was Brian. But then I was quickly reminded Who was in control and Who planted this in our hearts and I rested. Now this didn't mean that I didn't think about it daily or ask Brian if they had called yet but I had full confidence in knowing it was out of my hands and I could rest in the One Who held it.
It was interesting too, because one of my best friends asked me if I was going to call and defend myself to one of the board members of our adoption agency because we are related and I said "No, God is my defender" and I meant every word and had full confidence that no matter how things looked God knows our hearts. 1 Samuel 16:7
While on vacation last week word came back YES! You are fine, here's what you need to do...etc.

So, to the question where we are? We are still gathering some more paperwork needed to complete our home study and should be setting a date for our final interview with our social worker hopefully by the end of June. YAY!!!

How we are? We are amazing! Yes, we had a couple of melt downs but I can honestly say after crying for about 10 minutes I placed it in God's very capable hands and rested in His promises.
I sent out a text to my friend Tracy whom I met at adoption class to pray and she did. (I don't have your number Mollie or you would have gotten one too)
I leaned on several amazing friends here who are huge support to us and just prayed.
It did serve to remind me that you cannot do this alone. Support is everything and knowing others who are going through it is also a huge plus because they understand every step and know how crazy it can be.

Thank you thank you thank you for all your prayers and support. Please keep them coming because we are long way from being finished but we know we are on God's timetable, not our own and that gives us even more peace while on this journey.


Friday, May 13, 2011

Love is in the air.

Brian, the kids and I just spent some amazing time with Brians family. His brother, who is 5 years younger has a 17 month old daughter Moxie. We are completely in love with her. She took to all of us really quickly and loved the boys.
We have loved every minute being with our family and will miss them terribly.
Just one more reason I can't wait to bring our daughter home. She will have an amazing cousin close in age and will be smothered in love.

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Monday, April 25, 2011

John Piper~If You Abide in My Word, You Are Truly My Disciples

I listened to this message today by John Piper and was brought to tears because of how thankful I am to be part of God's family. I would encourage you all to listen and take notes. Its an incredible message of truth, wisdom and how to know if you are truly Jesus' disciple.
Enjoy and be blessed.

Friday, April 15, 2011

A Crazy God Blessed Life.

There is only one word to describe our life over the past 8 weeks. CRAZY!!

The week before Jayden's 12th birthday we went to see this house after Brian's boss had seen some pictures online. He had asked us if we were still looking to move. The truth at that moment was NO! We were happy where we were and had no interest of battling the banks to try and get a loan after we had been denied in November. We figured this was where God wanted us and were quite content.

Still, it did spike our interest especially since it was a log home and a foreclosure that had never been lived in. So, we went. Admittedly it was overwhelming as to how far it was from where we currently lived but even from the outside we loved what we saw. Then we went in. WOW! That's all we walked around saying. We just couldn't believe that it was a foreclosure. It sits on an acre and a half of land and there are only 2 other houses on the other 8 and a half acres. There is also a creek about a minutes walk from the house which we would have full access to for fishing, kayaking etc. So, a week later we made an offer. Well, if you've ever dealt with a foreclosure then you know its a game to see who wins. When it was all said and done I know we won.

Then all the fun really began. That week I broke my arm and life was kind of on hold. So was the house especially when we were denied again. I really just felt that it wasn't God's timing and I wasn't about to get in the way of that so I told Brian we should take a step back. We let our realtor know the situation who in turn let the bank holding the house know and lets just say they wouldn't take NO for an answer. They started all kinds of wheels in motion while Brian and I sat back not knowing which way to go or what decision was right.

Meanwhile I still have a broken arm, we are going from adoption class to social worker interviews, homeschooling, church, work yada yada yada yada.

It just kept on and on, the bank trying to get us financed kept saying we will have an answer in a few days, a few days turned into a few weeks and before we knew it, it was almost the end of March. Brian and I went back and forth wondering, praying, seeking counsel, weighing all our options. Is this our house? If they approve us do we still want it? What about the location? What about our adoption? Could we put all this money down on a house and still find money to complete our adoption? The questions and concerns just wouldn't let up. One minute we would think we had the "final" answer only to come to the next minute and feel like we were drowning. We would rock back and forth between rest and doubt. Then one morning about a week before they came back with a decision it just hit me like a ton of bricks. I just prayed and asked God to cause the choices we make to line up with His will. That is all we wanted. I just had immediate peace and knew that is what would happen. I text Brian who, as the head of our home was struggling because he didn't want to make a wrong decision. I told him how precisely I had prayed for us and the whole house situation and we both just breathed a sigh of relief. 6 days later they called us to say we would be closing 2 days later.

At this point not one box was packed but thankfully we had 30 days until we had to be out of our rental. The whirlwind began the day after closing, Brian and I went to clean the house and pull up the vinyl flooring in the laundry room and downstairs bathroom. Considering the house had been vacant since they finished building it wasn't as dirty as we thought it would be. That same weekend Brian and Jared laid tile in both those rooms and by Sunday afternoon the boys and I took our first load of "stuff" out there.

Monday thru Thursday we took load after load and on Friday the movers came to move all the big items. It was the first time we've ever hired movers but it was so worth it.

So, here we are a week later, we're all unpacked and slowly getting things hung up and put where they need to go. It'll be a work in progress for awhile but we've got nothing but time at this point. We have been so overwhelmed by everything. We simply feel undeserving but know how good our God is. We thank Him daily for this amazing opportunity and will cherish every moment we are blessed to live in this house.

For all of you who have been asking for pics below is a slide show of how the house currently looks. It's pretty basic but it will give you an idea of what it looks like. I hope you enjoy.

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Tuesday, April 05, 2011

Dr. Oz, Cancer from cold water & Heart attacks.

I have always liked reading different opinions on health and nutrition. My Aunt sent me this little tid bit from Dr. Oz.

DR. OZ on eating fruit
This is informative!

We all think eating fruit means just buying fruit, cutting it up and popping it into our mouths. It's not that easy. It's important to know how and when to eat fruit.

What's the correct way to eat fruit?


Eating fruit like that plays a major role in detoxifying your system, supplying you with a great deal of energy for weight loss and other life activities.


Let's say you eat two slices of bread, then a slice of fruit. The slice of fruit is ready to go straight through the stomach into the intestines, but it's prevented from doing so.

In the meantime, the whole meal rots and ferments, and turns to acid. The minute the fruit comes into contact with the food in the stomach, and digestive juices, the entire mass of food begins to spoil.
Eat your fruit on an empty stomach, or before your meal! You've heard people complain: Every time I eat watermelon I burp, when I eat durian my stomach bloats, when I eat a banana I feel like running to the toilet, etc. This will not happen if you eat the fruit on an empty stomach. Fruit mixes with the putrefying other food and produces gas. Hence, you bloat!
There's no such thing as some fruits, like orange and lemon are acidic, because all fruit becomes alkaline in our body, according to Dr. Herbert Shelton who did research on this matter. If you have mastered the correct way of eating fruit, you have the Secret of Beauty, Longevity, Health, Energy, Happiness and normal weight.
When you need to drink fruit juice drink only fresh fruit juice, NOT the concentrated juice from the cans. Don't drink juice that has been heated. Don't eat cooked fruit; you don't get the nutrients at all. You get only the taste. Cooking destroys all of the vitamins.
Eating a whole fruit is better than drinking the juice. If you should drink the juice, drink it mouthful by mouthful slowly, because you must let it mix with your saliva before swallowing it. You can go on a 3-day fruit-fast to cleanse your body. Eat fruit and drink fruit juice for just 3 days, and you will be surprised when your friends say how radiant you look!

KIWI: Tiny but mighty, and a good source of potassium, magnesium, vitamin E and fiber. Its vitamin C content is twice that of an orange!

AN APPLE a day keeps the doctor away? Although an apple has a low vitamin C content, it has antioxidants and flavonoids which enhances the activity of vitamin C, thereby helping to lower the risk of colon cancer, heart attack and stroke.

STRAWBERRY: Protective Fruit. Strawberries have the highest total antioxidant power among major fruits and protect the body from cancer-causing, blood vessel-clogging free radicals.

EATING 2 - 4 ORANGES a day may help keep colds away, lower cholesterol, prevent and dissolve kidney stones, and reduce the risk of colon cancer.

WATERMELON: Coolest thirst quencher. Composed of 92% water, it is also packed with a giant dose of glutathione, which helps boost our immune system.. Also a key source of lycopene, the cancer-fighting oxidant. Also found in watermelon: Vitamin C and Potassium.

GUAVA & PAPAYA: Top awards for vitamin C. They are the clear winners for their high vitamin C content. Guava is also rich in fiber, which helps prevent constipation. Papaya is rich in carotene, good for your eyes.

Drinking Cold water after a meal = Cancer!
Can you believe this? For those who like to drink cold water, this applies to you. It's nice to have a cold drink after a meal, however, the cold water will solidify the oily stuff that you've just consumed, which slows digestion Once this 'sludge' reacts with the acid, it will break down and be absorbed by the intestine faster than the solid food. It will line the intestine. Very soon, this will turn into fats and lead to cancer. It is best to drink hot soup or warm water after a meal.

A serious note about heart attacks.

Women should know that not every heart attack symptom is going to be the left arm hurting. Be aware of intense pain in the jaw. You may never have the first chest pain during the course of a heart attack. Nausea and intense sweating are also common symptoms. Sixty percent of people who have a heart attack while they're asleep do not wake up. Pain in the jaw can wake you from a sound sleep. Be careful, and be aware. The more we know, the better our chance to survive.

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Sunday, March 13, 2011

Duh!! the best way possible.

Our life in Bullets!

- Jayden turned 12.
- We went ice skating to celebrate, kids had an awesome time.
- I fell and broke the radial head in my elbow.
- Spent the evening at urgent care. Cried like a baby. 1. Because of the pain and 2. because I was missing what I thought was Jayden's last basketball game of the season.
- Jayden's team made the play offs.
- Spent the weekend in a fog of pain and meds.
- Saw ortho doc that week and first cast put on.
- Jacks basketball team won the league championship. :0)
- Homestudy agency approved our application and gave us dates for our adoption classes.
- Jaydens team lost last basketball game. :0(
- Played Bunco and WON!!!
- Hosted small group Matrix movie night.
- Attended 2 funerals.
- Went back to doc with hopes of cast coming off. It came off and then went right back on. Radial head fractured worse than doc originally thought.
- Attended first adoption class and met some amazing people.
- Spoke with adoption liaison regarding special needs child.
- Made decision to adopt special needs child.
- Jared decided his goal is to attend Masters Commision beginning in September.
- Jared began and finished drivers ed.
- Saw Hurricanes beat Panthers at last weeks hockey game.
- Got sucked into American Idol.
- First meeting with our social worker.
- Attended last adoption class and praying the connections made won't be lost.

It's been a whirlwind for a couple of months, hence why I haven't blogged. Not to mention typing one handed isnt easy. Lord willing I'll get my cast off Friday and blogging will be easier.
We have been so blessed by all the people who have assisted us during this time.
The adoption process is definately underway but will still be awhile. We appreciate your prayers and encouragement. We could not do this without you!

James 1:27
Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.

Be blessed!

Tuesday, March 01, 2011

Duh!! the best way possible.

- Jayden turned 12.
- We went ice skating to celebrate, kids had an awesome time.
- I fell and broke the radial head in my elbow.
- Spent the evening at urgent care. Cried like a baby. 1. Because of the pain and 2. because I was missing what I thought was Jayden's last basketball game of the season.
- Jayden's team made the play offs.
- Spent the weekend in a fog of pain and meds.
- Saw ortho doc that week and first cast put on.
- Jacks basketball team won the league championship. :0)
- Homestudy agency approved our application and gave us dates for our adoption classes.
- Jaydens team lost last basketball game. :0(
- Played Bunco and WON!!!
- Hosted small group Matrix movie night.
- Attended 2 funerals.
- Went back to doc with hopes of cast coming off. It came off and then went right back on. Radial head fractured worse than doc originally thought.
- Attended first adoption class and met some amazing people.
- Spoke with adoption liaison regarding special needs child.
- Made decision to adopt special needs child.
- Jared decided his goal is to attend Masters Commision beginning in September.
- Jared began and finished drivers ed.
- Saw Hurricanes beat Panthers at last weeks hockey game.
- Got sucked into American Idol.
- First meeting with our social worker.
- Attended last adoption class and praying the connections made won't be lost.

It's been a whirlwind for a couple of months, hence why I haven't blogged. Not to mention typing one handed isnt easy. Lord willing I'll get my cast off Friday and blogging will be easier.
We have been so blessed by all the people who have assisted us during this time.
The adoption process is definately underway but will still be awhile. We appreciate your prayers and encouragement. We could not do this without you!

James 1:27
Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.

Be blessed!
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Monday, February 07, 2011

Banana Republic

My friend Aubrey found this and sent it to me since I'm always interested in natural remedies. Pretty interesting.

Nine Unconventional Uses of a Banana!

Nine Unconventional Uses of a Banana!

Bananas are known for their medicinal values and as a staple food in many tropical countries. Not only the fruit, even the flower and the trunk are used for consumption in many South-Asian countries.
Here are some unconventional uses of a Banana:

1. Banana As A Cosmetic:
This fruit not only has nutritional properties when eaten, it also does wonders to your facial skin when applied externally, especially if you have a dry skin. Combine mashed banana with honey or almond oil and apply this evenly on your face and neck. Keep for twenty minutes and wash with cold water. Voila! You have a soft and a supple skin your friends will envy.
A banana also makes for a great recipe for shiny hair. Add some honey, some yogurt, and some lemon juice to a mashed banana and apply it all over your hair. Keep for about half an hour before shampooing your hair. And lo! You have shiny soft hair without any artificial conditioners or shiners.
2. Getting Rid Of A Wart or reduce mosquito bite swelling:

A Shoe / Leather Shiner For Emergency:The potassium in the banana helps in this remedy. Just rub the insides of a banana peel on the wart for a few days. The wart will be gone. Also, rubbing the insides of a peel on a mosquito bite will not only help the itch to go away but will also reduce the swelling.
Rub the insides of a banana on your shoe or anything made of leather, and then buff it up with a tissue. The shoe/leather will shine as good as new.
4. As a Fertilizer:
Since bananas are rich in phosphorus and potassium, they make a great addition to your compost pile. You can also bury the skin directly a little under the soil of your rose bushes to detract aphids.
5. Promotes Healing:
Banana skin also promotes healing especially if you have been grazed or scraped. Just apply the insides of the banana skin to the wound. It not only helps reduce pain but also speeds up the process of healing. It also helps in reducing rashes you might have got from sumac, poison oak or poison ivy.
6. Get White Teeth:
Just sprinkle some table salt on the inside of a banana peel and rub it on your teeth for about a couple of minutes. Try it for two weeks continuously to see results. You will be surprised at how your teeth stains vanish!
7. Tenderizer:
If you feel that your meat will turn out to be a little tough, just adding a ripe peeled banana to the pan before roasting the meat will soften it.
8. Erase Ink Stains:
If you have any ink stains on your skin, just rub the inside of a banana skin onto your skin until the stains go away.
9. Erase Scratches Off Your CD:
Rub the inside of a banana peel on the CD in circular motions and then wipe off with a soft cloth. Your CD is as good as new!

From this website

Monday, January 10, 2011

Faith in WHAT?!

Brian and I were watching old episodes of LA Ink yesterday while the boys were skating. I am completely fascinated with tattoos and tattooing.
The thing I like the most about LA Ink is they tell you all the stories of the clients and the reason for the tattoo.
A beautiful woman came in the shop and was getting her first tattoo from Corey (who is no longer on the show) of the word Faith on the inside of her wrist. Anytime anyone gets anything "christiany" I wait with expectancy for the reason why.
Now, at first look you would think this woman was a model. It turns out she is a WWE Raw wrestler. She then went on to explain how no one ever said she could make it as a wrestler or believed in her and she said but I went out and I proved them all wrong because I had FAITH that I could do it! So I sat there waiting for the climax of that statement. I knew what I wanted it to be. I wanted her to say because of my Faith in God I knew I could do it.
But that isn't what she meant at all. She had faith in herself. I was disheartened.
Later as Brian and I were on our way to small group it hit me that just as people use the term "I'm a Christian" yet live their own way Monday through Saturday I'm hearing that word faith thrown around so loosely more and more.
They are having "faith" in just about anything but God these days.
Faith in their careers, faith in their spouse, faith in their family or friends, faith in the future, faith in finances, faith in their Pastor or church. And most of all Faith in THEMSELVES!!!
In small doses faith in these "things" isn't all bad but at the end of the day if we don't have Faith in God none of those "things" matter. They aren't what saves us.
And as believers we have to be ever vigilant and aware of who we are really putting our Faith in.
Hebrews 11:6 And without FAITH it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to Him must believe He exists and that He rewards those who earnestly seek Him.
So, examine yourself (I know I am), who or what do you really have faith in?

Saturday, January 08, 2011

Arrogance, Pharisee's and God's love.

A small yet profound revelation for me this morning as I was praying.
God is not mad at me. I have heard it said more times than I can count not to mention all the sermons with that exact title preached.
But when you realize it for yourself it is something quite different.
I was a Pharisee for years.
Always comparing myself with others and what they were or weren't doing. If you're a christian at any level, I know you can relate to this statement.
I had myself so convinced God was either mad or disappointed with me most of the time. Therefore, if I looked at someone and they were doing things that were worse then God was more mad at them than me, and I could breathe a little easier. Some logic huh?
Then this morning as I was praying for myself, family, church, friends etc.
And I can't explain why but honestly I don't care b/c of the freedom it has brought.
He isn't mad at anyone.
Sad maybe.
But not mad.
God is love.
He loves me, He loves you.
He wants you and will do whatever He can to get you.
He loves the rapist.
He loves the adulterer.
He loves the porn star.
He loves the stay at home mom.
He loves the gang leader.
He loves the drug addict.
He loves the pastor.
He loves the man/woman who is cheating on their taxes.
He loves the homosexual living in sin.
He loves the broken and the hurting.

He is there with open arms waiting to heal the hurt and bring peace and comfort to me, you and anyone else who will let Him.

In my arrogance I never got this before. I am no better or worse than anyone of the above. I am just in need of my Father's love, forgiveness and acceptance.

Romans 2:4 is one of my favorite verses.
Don’t you see how wonderfully kind, tolerant, and patient God is with you? Does this mean nothing to you? Can’t you see that his kindness is intended to turn you from your sin?

Something else I forgot. Just because I repented and came into relationship with Jesus doesn't mean I never have to repent again. His love and kindness in my life gently shows me other things (sins) in my life that I need to repent of. My heart is bursting with all God is teaching me. I feel so blessed.

As a result of my revelation the Pharisee in me will die and I will walk in freedom.
More importantly, I can now be more effective in helping others see the goodness of God regardless of where they are in life.

He is waiting with open arms, all we have to do is fall into His embrace.

Saturday, January 01, 2011

Happy New Year and Fear of the Unknown

Happy New Year!!! Once again it's hard to believe another year has come and gone but here we are ready to start anew.
This can be a really hard time for some people. As we watched the ball drop last night I felt a lump in my throat and fought back the tears as a twinge of anxiety surfaced. See for years I battled depression and anxiety. Most of which are due to me being a control freak and worrier.
As I've grown in my relationship with Jesus I have truly begun to grasp the concept that I don't have to worry about anything. I have literally had moments of pure elation when I realize that even death itself is nothing to fear. Of course those moments quickly pass by and I have to remind myself what I was worrying about. Have you ever been there?
All worrying is is the concept of thinking you are controlling everything and/or everyone in your life. For instance, when I go places with other people I always like to drive because then I am in control of getting to said place safely. It's the exact reason I don't like to fly. I can't see where I am going and someone else is at the controls.
But thats just it. I know the saying "Is God your Pilot" cliche but its so true. Is he?
The reality is we are not in control of anything except ourselves and how we are responding to God's call in our lives. And His basic call to all of His children is to love Him with all our heart, soul, mind etc. and to love others. The rest is gravy. He promised He would never leave us nor forsake us. Hebrew 13:5 So, do I do you really believe that or don't we? I know one thing is for sure. He is not a man that He can lie so if that is what He says then that is what is true. Which means no matter how we feel about this new year and all the unknowns God will be there to walk us through all of it.
I feel blessed to have learned that once I recognize I am worrying I breathe a prayer of thankfulness that God has it under control and is guiding and directing my steps.
Psalm 37:23-24 says The steps of a man are established by the LORD, when he delights in his way; though he fall, he shall not be cast headlong, for the LORD upholds his hand.
I love what this says. All you need to do is delight in His way and even when you do fall He upholds you with His hand. That is just beautiful to me.
So trust in this promise and just wait, peace will follow and you will be blown away by it.

I challenge you today. Rest in God's truths not just for this New Year but for all the New Year's to come and may 2011 bring us even closer to Jesus.