Thursday, June 26, 2008

5 years ago today...

  • her pain and suffering ended
  • my father lost his wife
  • I lost my best friend
  • she met Jesus
  • I knew what hell was
  • I knew God's sovereignty
As 5 years has passed us by and we have all managed to pick up the pieces and live our lives without her I recognize more and more how short life is. The pain of that day is as real today as it was 5 years ago. Remembering how I sat with her one last time as she turned cold. I held her hand to my face in an effort to never forget what it felt like to be touched by her. I was afraid to leave for fear I would forget. But now, I see her in my relationships with others. As I remember the type of women she was I long to be like her. So selfless and accepting. Always thinking of others ahead of herself. Laughing through tears, singing and praising through the pain as the cancer ate away at her body. Never giving up hope, never faltering in her faith and ultimately living her life for His glory to the very end. She always said she won either way and she was right. Not a day goes by I don't miss her but as I look at our family and see how we let God turn mourning into morning I thank God for every minute I did have her and all the things she is still teaching me even 5 years after her death.


Deann said...


I remember your mom so well from BUNCO!! I thought she was a beautiful light and enjoyed her so much! She always made me laugh and smile. :)

I also want you to know your words are very comforting, as my dad has cancer and isn't likely to make it much longer.

I am praying for you and your family today.

metromom said...

Rachel, Thinking of you today! What a legacy of love and wisdom she left you.